Saturday, September 29, 2012

Thank you for all your kind words and emails...

They mean so much.

We are all struggling so with the loss of Darla. She brought such joy to our everyday lives, we didn't realize how much until we lost her. She was part of our family and part of us.

Many can't understand why people would be so upset. "It's just a dog" some will say. Quite frankly I feel sorry for those who can't understand. I can't imagine not feeling that unconditional love, joy and happiness a pet brings.

My sweet hubs is having such a difficult time. I feel so bad for him. He's a strong man, but keeps breaking down in tears at just the thought of her. Telling me how much he misses her.

Gracie is so unbelievable lost. She has always had a 4 legged companion since we brought her into our home 7 years ago. She has no one to play with now. I try to play with her but it's not the same. She and Darla we two peas in a pod. Even with a 6 year difference, Darla chased her around the house on a daily basis. Parading around with a toy in their mouth, as if to say, "Ha! Ha!! Look what I've got!!" They shared everything. They were never separated. Until now.

Now, Gracie is running through the house with her nose to the ground, crying and trying to find her sister. It's heart wrenching.

Me, all I do is cry. I cry for my husband. I cry for my Gracie.
I cry for my Darla. Second guessing if I could have done more for her. Maybe I should have... If I only did... Like I said, I'm the "mama." Mamas make everything all better. I couldn't this time.

I have had to say goodbye to two other dogs in my lifetime. As as unbelievably painful as it was, letting go of Darla has been the worst. I guess our bond was strongest. I have lost my loyal best friend, my sidekick my shadow.

I know time will heal our pain. But right now we are all hurting and it feels like an eternity.

I want to thank a dear internet friend who sent me this poem yesterday.
(Thank you, Judy)
I know there are others out there who are struggling too with their loss. You will find this comforting.

I will lend to you for a while a puppy, God said,
For you to love her while she lives
and to mourn for her when she is gone.
Maybe for 12 or 14 years, or maybe for 2 or 3
But will you, till I call her back
take care of her for me?
She'll bring her charms to gladden you and
(should her stay be brief)
you'll always have her memories
as solace from the grief.
I cannot promise that she will stay
since all from Earth return,
But there are lessons taught below
I want this pup to learn.
I've searched the whole world over
in search of teachers true,
And from the fold that crowd life's land
I have chosen you.
Now will you give her all you love
Nor think the labor vain,
nor hate Me when I come to take
My pup back home again?
I fancied that I heard them say,
"Dear Lord, Thy Will Be Done,"
For all the joys this pup will bring
the risk of grief you'll run.
Will you shelter her with tenderness,
Will you love her while you may?
And for the happiness you'll know
forever grateful stay?
But should I call her back
much sooner than you've planned,
please brave the bitter grief that comes
and try to understand.
If, by your love, you've managed
My wishes to achieve,
In memory of her that you've loved,
cherish every moment with your faithful bundle,
and know she loved you too.



Robin at The Primitive Hutch said...

I am so sorry to hear about your beloved Darla.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Cat Nap Inn Primitives said...

oh Peanut..I just read this and the previous post and I am crying as I read I know what a great mom and dad you both are to your furry babies..I will tell did the right thing..she went out with dignity and you didn't let her suffer...I know we want them there..but if their quality of life is hurting them..then its they are not in any more pain..Mourn her and then rejoice that she is happy and healthy and with her sister and that you will see them again..get a companion for your will help heal her loss too..again I am so sorry to hear about this..I wish I could give you a great big hug..but know I am thinking about you and I feel your pain..

Primitive Stars said...

Hello, my heart is so so heavy for you and yours, poor Gracie, they just don`t understand where their friend is, breaks my heart. We went through that pain not so long ago to, still miss Daisy. For the people who say it`s just a dog are missing out on a faithful family member, shame on them. I will have to read the poem another time, to many tears are flowing right now. Blessings Francine.

rockriverstitches said...

My heart aches for you, hubby and Gracie. It's so hard to lose a pet. I've been through it many times with the many cats I've had in my life time.

Sending you hugs and prayers,

Janet - underthewillow said...

I am very sorry for your loss...I know how deep inside that pain hurts...perhaps one day you will feel up to adding another member to your took me over 20 years to be able to get another kitty after losing my beloved Emily...hopefully it won't be that long for you...hugs


Dixie Redmond said...

Aw, Karin. Sending hugs to you and your family. I wouldn't have understood before we got Shelby.

Countryfolk Keepsakes said...

Carol Roll said...

Peanut sending you prayers and love throughout this incredibley sad time.

Cookie said...

My heart has been so heavy, knowing what you are going through and knowing there is nothing I can do but pray for you all. I'm so so sorry Goob... I'm here anytime you need a shoulder, an ear and a friend ready to embrace and hug.

tj said...

...*sobbing* That poem. It brought back all the memories of all the pets that I have loved and that have gone home before me. Shannon, Cody, Baby Kitty, Maggy, Piper, Hanna, Mama Kitty, it goes on. They are all missed so and each one holds a special place in my heart but there was one, that seemed like your Darla does to you Karin. The one that seems to take up a larger space in my heart, his name was "Forest". He was every bit his namesake, life was a box a chocolates and then some... He was my everything. Sadly, he didn't get to live very long when we found out he had been born with this rare disease that would end his life way too early. He didn't even get to make it to the age of five when I had to make that God awful decision that you just had to make. I can't tell you the year that he passed because I've put that number so far out of my head but it he has been gone for some time now, but to my heart, to my heart it is as if he left me yesterday. I don't weep much anymore but there are times that I speak of him and my voice will shake at having to say his name.

...Karin & Mr. Peanut, all I can tell you is that is does get easier. It does. Right now you all are grieving and it is what you are supposed to do, allow yourselves time to do so and for however long it takes. Even lil' Gracie will have to grieve her loss too. Eventually Darla's memory will bring about smiles instead of tears, you'll be able to share stories of her antics without hesitation. And please, don't place blame upon yourselves, because it is obvious to anyone on how much you loved her and to what extent you both went thru to see to it that she was cared for and comfortable. Darla was a blessed pup to have you two as her parents.

...Please know I am keeping your family in my prayers and sending you my deepest sympathies. Again, I am so sorry.

...Blessings to you all.

Diana said...

As you know..we lost our Angel this year. It is do hard. My heart goes out to you and your DH..hugs and much love to you, sweet Karin..

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